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Typed by Chloe Aiken.

Sometimes I like to be poetic. Or should I say, I like to think I am poetic sometimes, and by poetic, I mean tapped into the depths of genuine, passionate emotions. Never been good at sports. Always been too nervous or anxious or scared to be in front of crowds let alone. And very in-tune with my feelings and emotions.

And then, at other times, I like to get crazy for a little bit, in moderation, for fun, and release of the struggles and daily stresses in life.

I love raging at festivals. Ugh. The energy. But then again, I love chilling, doing whatever, while still being productive one way or another at home. 

Never liked labels too much. Took me a long time to accept the label as Brennen Jensens’ girlfriend, and then in return say I have a boyfriend. But once I became uncomfortable for a bit, felt what i was experiencing, and recognized it as a blessing, life became a little better. Understanding there are people out there that love you, want to go do fun things that per say, I want to do- its cool. The genuineness in connection, compassion, creativity, and care is great. 

I agree, that with aging, does come growth, as cliché as it does sound. I want to say the switch in age between eighteen and nineteen, and then nineteen and twenty is a major jump into life. It of course, all depends on the person, too, and their overall cognitive thinking put into their own lives. But for me personally, I grew up majorly in many aspects between being an 18-year old, and now, about to turn 20-year old. It, too, has been the conscious realization for me, that this is my last year as a teenager. What is funny, though, is I did not actually realize that until this month- a month before I turn 20. I always have heard older family members, and their friends, say stuff like, “Wow, where has time gone?”, and “Time flies.” My brain has always stuck on to those words. I have always tried to become more in the present, and in tune with my surroundings for the main reason of not wanting to waste my life. 

I am happy to accept the labeling of turning 20 and out of my teen years. Yes, indeed, it was great, but now I believe it is actually time to focus in on what I love, and what I want to achieve in my lifetime. To take action, become responsible, pay attention, and to also remember to  stay thankful, and humble in the process of growing. I have been told by many that I am very mature for my age, but now, more than ever, do I actually believe and live up to that label. 

Here’s to turning 20-years old!!!

Saturday, June 28th, 2019

HELLO.

Friday, June 28th, 2019

‘An Introduction: Downtown, and All Around, with Brennen Blue.’

This is an introduction of myself; I am Chloe Aiken, and this is my website- where you will be able to see my weekly blog posts, new ideas, and where you will see my business plan develop.

Of course, I will link my social media accounts, and contact information, but this is where I just want to start, simply by speaking to you all, explaining who I am, and what my motives are. I am as of right now nineteen years old, but my 20thbirthday is in a couple of weeks, on July 12th. I guess you could kind of say that coming out of my teen years had an influence on me starting, and pursuing my website/blog.

I am currently living about 10 miles away, a straight shot, from downtown Knoxville, Tennessee. I find downtown to be one of the best parts of Knoxville to come to- whether it be for business, food, peace, or social occasions; most likely you will find what you are looking for downtown. I feel like this is common for many people, in different areas around the world, too- that the downtown ‘urban’ scene is where productivity is achieved. 

I used to live even closer to downtown when I was in my childhood years living at home, across Henley Street Bridge, and down the well-known, dangerous, Chapman Highway just a few miles. I never realized how many people from the suburbs and surrounding areas come into downtown any time they get, which is mostly the weekends. I was blessed to grow up in such a diverse area, showing me the wide spectrum of different family lives, incomes, and issues within not only South-Knoxville, and the downtown area, but The United States, as a whole, too. If you actually go downtown on any given day, or time, you will see, learn, and understand more than when you first arrived, if you go with the mindset that it is almost like a sociology lesson in itself.

Even living in The Historic Fort Sanders neighborhood, right behind The University of Tennessee, with my almost two-year long boyfriend, Brennen Jensen, was an eye-opener to lessons of understanding the people within the college campus culture. ‘The Fort’ is where mostly college students live, that is technically off campus, but still within walking distance of downtown. 

Since this time last year, not only have I grown personally within my mindsets and goals, but spiritually and emotionally as well. I cannot completely say I did it all on my own. Brennen has been one of my biggest motivators’, influencers’, and inspirations’ to who I am today, so I would like to take a moment to thank and recognize him. How we came to be in a relationship is a story in itself, but man, have we been through it these past couple of years. I know now that we did a lot of the ‘hard things first’, to kind of get it out of the way, so that we can both work on, and be what we are meant for- together, and individually. 

So there’s a warm-up, and here is a start;

After graduating a semester early from South-Doyle high school, I continued working in the food and beverage industry as a server. I soon decided that college was next, and that Chattanooga was my destination. I moved into my dorm room about a full week before anyone else was scheduled to move in, except for potential sorority and fraternity members. I went through the whole ‘recruitment’ week-long process, of going into the different sorority houses, and meeting them all, so that we could all chose which one best suits us, and which one thinks we as individuals best suit them as well. It wasn’t awful; I had an experience for sure, and yeah I did have some fun, and meet some cool girls, but as we would line up for each new meeting with a potential sorority, I would always have to be first. Alphabetical order!!!! My last name is Aiken, so there’s that. The day we ran to our ‘new home’ was ‘coincidentally’ the day Brennen first drove down to Chattanooga to visit me, with his at the time, close friend, because his girlfriend went to school at UTC, too. Anyways, I’d really call that day, our first real date, because that was the day I knew I actually had feelings more strongly than I thought for this person. His parents, at the time, were strict towards the fact that he was going out of town 100+ miles, and that he needed to be home by like 8pm…. Pretty sure he was late by like an hour and a half, because of how good of a time we really were having at the time. 

I went to UT Chattanooga for a major in business entrepreneurship, but as a new freshman, I took classes such as sociology, which was by far my favorite class, along with my literature class, where I was told to have ‘Between the World and Me’ read and completed by the time school started. I took an architecture class, too, along with a ‘mandatory’ freshman business seminar class. Last but never least, or in my case, it was my least favorite, Algebra; This ended up being the class I pulled out of, which meant I would be losing my ‘HOPE’ scholarship. At the time this in itself made me feel like a failure already, on top of letting my family down, where they would now have to pay more towards my tuition. 

The first weekend that I came back to Knoxville after being at school, in Chattanooga, for a few weeks, my high school friends were all riding back together, and asked if I wanted to come. Of course I said yes, because my, at the time, 2017 Toyota Yaris was within my dads’ parental control, for the reason being it was my first year/semester in college, and it just was not a necessity. Anyways, it was Friday, September 1st, 2017, when Brennen picked me up from home, and decided to take me out on a date, and to my first ‘edm’ show. This took place at The International, which is now closed, but still open next door at another club called The Concourse, that is very similar. It is located right under the interstate neighbored by downtown Knoxville, and ‘The Fort’, that I mentioned earlier. 

After our first date weekend spent together, Brennen, our friend Taylor Lane, and I drove back down to Chattanooga Tuesday morning so I could be in class to take my first algebra quiz. As I went through the initial first few weeks at college, I started to realize I want to work, and make money, so that I can provide, and support for myself.

I have always been known, to be independent, yet sociable, and outgoing. I got an on-campus job inside a little general market, at Subway. It really was not that bad; Subway was my very first job before I transitioned to serving. To me, it was familiar, close-by, and easy-money. For about two more months I was living and learning there, in Chattanooga, until November came around, and I decided to leave school completely, and come back to Knoxville, where I would soon leave my parents house completely, with Brennen’s care and support, too. I left for a few reasons, but truthfully the main one was because I simply felt like it just was not for me. I had by then figured out I wanted to open by own business, and that I did not really need a degree for that, so I left. Overall, no, I do not regret that decision; Overall, it has helped me intensely in becoming what I am meant for in life and in my career, too.

Eventually we found, and moved into our first apartment together in Fort Sanders; This is where we adopted our 2ndkitty, named Girl. We had already had our boy kitty, “Bighead”, for a few months prior to getting our own actual apartment that wasn’t shared, or paid for, by anyone else. We now live off Chapman Highway, in between South-Knoxville, and Sevierville, in a small town called Seymour. I work at Dunkin Donuts a couple days a week in the morning, and then for my main, second job, I am a server at an oriental sushi and grill, pretty much everyday during the week, and weekends, too. 

I tell people, my plan is to work, and save that extra money to firstly pay off past loans and debts, and then, to put that money towards my future, and my future company. I am very excited to keep going, and to remember to stop, and to be in the present, and to see the beauty of the time being. 

Downtown; downtown Knoxville, Chattanooga, Pigeon Forge, Gatlinburg, and of course, little ole Seymour: I am so excited, and anxious in such a good way, for new beginnings going forward into the future. Beyond thankful to be sharing energies with my love and support, Brennen Jensen; I know he is just as excited as I to be, after 19-20 years, moving out of Tennessee, and to continue growing, as individual humans, and together, for the overall better purpose in life.

Look him up on YouTube: Brennen Blue.

He is continuously creating some really cool content. 

1592 words for blog #1—– lets f***ing get it.

Thanks for reading. – Chloe Aiken.