Typed by Chloe Aiken.

Sometimes I like to be poetic. Or should I say, I like to think I am poetic sometimes, and by poetic, I mean tapped into the depths of genuine, passionate emotions. Never been good at sports. Always been too nervous or anxious or scared to be in front of crowds let alone. And very in-tune with my feelings and emotions.

And then, at other times, I like to get crazy for a little bit, in moderation, for fun, and release of the struggles and daily stresses in life.

I love raging at festivals. Ugh. The energy. But then again, I love chilling, doing whatever, while still being productive one way or another at home. 

Never liked labels too much. Took me a long time to accept the label as Brennen Jensens’ girlfriend, and then in return say I have a boyfriend. But once I became uncomfortable for a bit, felt what i was experiencing, and recognized it as a blessing, life became a little better. Understanding there are people out there that love you, want to go do fun things that per say, I want to do- its cool. The genuineness in connection, compassion, creativity, and care is great. 

I agree, that with aging, does come growth, as cliché as it does sound. I want to say the switch in age between eighteen and nineteen, and then nineteen and twenty is a major jump into life. It of course, all depends on the person, too, and their overall cognitive thinking put into their own lives. But for me personally, I grew up majorly in many aspects between being an 18-year old, and now, about to turn 20-year old. It, too, has been the conscious realization for me, that this is my last year as a teenager. What is funny, though, is I did not actually realize that until this month- a month before I turn 20. I always have heard older family members, and their friends, say stuff like, “Wow, where has time gone?”, and “Time flies.” My brain has always stuck on to those words. I have always tried to become more in the present, and in tune with my surroundings for the main reason of not wanting to waste my life. 

I am happy to accept the labeling of turning 20 and out of my teen years. Yes, indeed, it was great, but now I believe it is actually time to focus in on what I love, and what I want to achieve in my lifetime. To take action, become responsible, pay attention, and to also remember to  stay thankful, and humble in the process of growing. I have been told by many that I am very mature for my age, but now, more than ever, do I actually believe and live up to that label. 

Here’s to turning 20-years old!!!

Saturday, June 28^th, 2019